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Thoughts to ponder...
I KNEW when I was no longer living my life in alignment with my deepest truth. Even though back then, I didn’t quite know what that meant. Even though it meant giving everything up to be alone, I left my marriage, I lost a lot of “friends” in the process and even some of family didn’t speak to me for a while. It was a confusing decision for everyone except me. It has the hardest decision I ever made and even though I knew it was right, it still hurt more than anything I’d ever experienced.
I DIVE into things fuelled by only joy and then figure out the details later. Some choices require thought, sure. But some projects really are created by and fuelled by EXCITEMENT and VISION and if it ends up an epic fail...well there’s a lesson in that and I’ll take it!
I am a romantic and a D R E A M E R. I believe in LOVE and if there is even one tiny sparkle to be found in a pile of shit, I WILL find it.
There is NO doubt in my mind that we can create the E X A C T future we crave. From nothing more than our unshakable desire for those circumstances , and our unshakable belief that we deserve every tiny detail it involves and an unshakable belief that we are already there. When you sit in that space or creation, and celebrate its arrival now...you begin to shape your story at a cellular level. That’s so FREAKING exciting!
I plant seeds of JOY around my day. Between commitments, amongst responsibilities, in every shape and form. From coffee dates with the girls at Hyde Park, to kitchen dancing and frequent stupidity but also the most epic, strange weird conversations with my amazing husband who is also my best mate and everything awesome in between to time by myself staring at the ocean and time in reflection, connecting to something so super special that I can’t see, know is there, trust fully and feel so supported by. There’s kitten cuddles, creation of make believe stories about the lives of my kittens including them driving a little red car and attending button club, to chasing my favourite sound in the world ---> that of the black cockatoo, my spirit bird.
I CHOOSE HAPPINESS, which doesn’t mean I don’t experience sadness, I’m just more CURIOUS.
I steer clear of things that involve restriction, guilt and lead to short term growth at the expense of sustainable change (dieting, restricting food, training when I have no energy to do so, relying only on physical measures or beating myself up)
I give myself permission to enjoy things that bring me JOY. And if I feel afterwards it didn’t actually align with who I am now and who I actually want to be, my future choice will be a different one.
I eat the rainbow. I eat chocolate too because it brings me joy.
I own my shit. I’m human, I lose it too. And I own it as soon as I can. I say sorry, I don’t sit in that shame or guilt for too long, but I sit in it for long enough to explore it.
Instead of escaping discomfort I try to understand it.
I admit when I’m wrong. Not all ideas are good ones afterall!
I see everyone as a teacher. The teachers, my friends, the people who hurt me, the people I hurt, the children, nature - now NATURE has it sorted right? She really does.
I move slowly more often than not. I love to sweat and burn too, but life gives me enough of that so I’ve learnt to sit. To breath. To ponder. To imagine. To smile at what I see in my imagination. There is so much to smile about. It might just be different to what we once had or thought we would experience. Don’t forget that xx